Gary's Blog
This blog contains reflections from my journal. I am always interested in where others are in their lives in these matters of the soul, so if you are moved to share, please do so. Simply go to the Contact page, or leave a comment at the end of any of my entries. Meanwhile, blessings on your journey.
Below are links to the ten most recent entries. To view more, use the pagination menu at the bottom of each listing page.
Moving Toward Lovemaking At Deeper Levels of Consciousness
I feel shame for not being present to you or to US. Then I start feeling trapped. Suddenly I am not free to be me, right where I am. If I’m honest I have to admit to myself and to you that I start resenting you. I get all caught up in these reactions and feelings – a huge disharmony inside – feeling constrained, shut down at the level of my Essence.
Pathwork Lecture Support For My Leadership Transition
As I step down from leadership at Sevenoaks I still feel responsibility to support the people who stay in key responsibilities through this transition. The next two months will be challenging, …
Accepting What Is — My Anxiety, Faults, Masks, Limitations, Etc.
In recent mornings I have been aware of anxiety in me, even a mild depression. So it is not surprising that in reading an article by Daniel Smith, Nothing to Do but Embrace the Dread (here embracing his dread of his persistent anxiety) in yesterday’s edition of the New York Times, I could not help but think of my experiences and how Pathwork supports me.
Learning from Facilitating a Pathwork Lecture Exploration
… I learned a bunch – about the Lecture we were sharing (Pathwork Lecture 17: The Call – Daily Review), about Pathwork in general, and about facilitating of groups.
Loving the Pathwork Lectures
As usual, this week my daily review has revealed many disharmonies in my life, granting me a window on my Soul’s Journey and leading to self-knowledge…
Answering my Call to be an Acorn — From Pseudo-Leadership to Leadership
I realize that I am often not aware of what is motivating me in my many facets of life, yet I seem so involved in the seeking process – seeking without even knowing that I am seeking it seems.
In Preparation for our Couple's Intensive
… what I left out was the physical, emotional, and sexual aspects of my Essence. These aspects were quite undeveloped, especially as related to my connecting to women.
Presence Needed, Not Help
In fact I did not “get” that simple presence held any particular value at all, and that what Pat really values in me is my simple but full presence to her – as the quote from Thich Nhat Hahn says.
Not Much Troubles Me. Should That Trouble Me?
A sudden sense of having wasted my entire life surfaces. Do I leave the planet any better than I found it? Was that even important? Does any single life really matter in the end? An existential purposelessness sets in.
Pathwork and Healing My Attachment Avoidance Disorder
I am reminded of the Pathwork teachings on bypassing. – trying to experience “pleasure supreme” by going around rather than through my attachment avoidance defenses, negativities, and, above all, rather than truly healing my negative intentionality through a process of purification and transformation.