A Pathworker’s Blog

Why have I pursued spiritual paths in general and Pathwork in Particular? Why am I so drawn to some spiritual paths? Why do I get so very committed to them?

After an encounter with one of our leaders yesterday I noticed I was bummed out – anxious, uneasy, and pulled off my center.

I saw that I put another burden on myself: I must be competent in my own spiritual life. After all, I left the church and have gone on my own spiritual path. I had better be “right” about this decision to leave my tribe and find my own spiritual path.

Struggling against nonexistent problems – now there is a helpful consideration!

I shared with Pat some of my misconceptions regarding our relationship – beliefs and images I held that precluded our having a more fulfilling relationship.

Our coffee time in the morning is like On The Job Training! I find my voice here with our “us.”

I could feel my energy building through this 30-minute meditation time. … Pat joined me. Her mood was quite somber.

Today, March 29, 2012, begins a Sabbath for me, a time of rest and celebration. Yesterday I finished my six-year project of recording my readings of the body of 258 Pathwork Lectures – 204 hours of recorded Pathwork teachings.

Certainly, while it may have given me a habit or compulsion for meditating each day, it was not something I was really into or seemed to “get.”

Since my “highs” on Thursday, I have been in a downward spiral into confusion, lostness, depression, and anxiety.