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… on some level this cherishing you does feel risky to me, fearing that my cherishing will not be received …

And later when we look back we realize that the “cure” to our “beautiful problem” not only occurred but that our “healing” of this problem took us far beyond anything we could have imagined as a “cure.” The cure we sought was a little “c” cure. The cure we got was a big “C” Cure!

In this post I shall speak to …my emergence as a “Happy Monk.” This title … was feedback after looking at what I have been up to, the emergence from within me of what I call Devotional Version of the Pathwork Lectures.

The man who has sincerely accepted a religious scheme in which all the major problems of life are provided with solutions is likely to go through life without ever experiencing the direct impact of those problems.

Gary: I notice I sense no upside to connection. Pat: Let’s pause here. This is a huge insight!

We began our coffee time by acknowledging the possibility that neither of us values, truly values, our own sexuality. What!

I do not understand why I do not experience more loss, or why I do not grieve these major “losses” in my life. I did not even fully grieve my parents after their sudden death in 1972 when I was turning 30. Something feels off here, not fully human.

… seeing my cruelty, my strong self-will, my demanding narrow view of connection emphasizing sex, my “killer energy” toward you, and other negative traits in me was indeed sobering.

I realized that without Sage and Anthony present to Pat and me in these challenging and sensitive areas of our relationship I feel alone with Pat, and the image came up in me of being alone with Pat in a lion’s cage – Pat being the lion.

Writing for my Writing Group 1/18/14…So Moments Worth Remembering is the topic for our January 18th Writing group. As soon as the topic was assigned last month I started keeping track of such times.