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…Yes, a cloud of darkness and anxiety was coming in on my evening. I wasn’t sure what was in my anxiety and the darkness rolling in, but there it was, and I was very aware of it.

While she spoke this with tenderness and love, I noticed that I could not really take in her words, I could not bring myself to believe her words.

To my amazement and delight (OK, and at first to my panic) Marjorie Bair had read not only my write up on the April 14-17 Trust Workshop that she had led, but she also read both of my two previous blog entries on Pat’s and my experience at Sage’s workshop on Divine Sexuality last weekend,

Wednesday morning, following the couples workshop, I commented to Pat about my sense of stuckness in our relating. Was I resigning myself to not being fulfilled in the sexual/physical dimensions of our otherwise beautiful relationship?

Over the May 6-8 weekend Pat and I, along with 24 others, participated in a Divine Sexuality workshop led by Sagewalker. … The purpose of this blog entry is to share some of that experience.

This possible glimpse of enlightenment I tasted occurred near the end of an April 14-17, 2016 workshop. It was Module 3 of the 2015/16 Sacred Dimensions of the Pathwork Program, created by Erena Bramos and staged at Sevenoaks Retreat Center near Charlottesville, Virginia.

“Gary, a dog would be ‘good for you.’”

… something had happened in the Monday session that shifted me. And I realized that I could not truly express exactly what had shifted or how things now were different from before. I was in an “I’m OK” feeling space.

…my inquiry turned to experiencing pleasure in the NOW, loving what is in the NOW, no matter what the “what is” is that I am to love.

I went on to share with Pat that I was in reaction to her input to me and that I felt “brutalized.”