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I had several helpful/clarifying/confusing responses to my previous blog, Those “Amazingly Modern” Pathwork Lectures. I add “confusing” to “helpful/clarifying” just to confess my own naiveté and limited experience with the subject matter. (Let’s explore!)

…my amazement of, thrill with, and my deep appreciation for this Pathwork material grows daily. Yes, daily, now as I work nearly every day as the “Happy Philosopher Monk” in creating the Devotional Format of the Pathwork Lectures.

…how I experience the body of 258 Pathwork Lectures as a Mystical Text…

“The more you surrender to what is YOUR LIFE, as you are doing here, not comparing yourself to others or to the expectations of Mom or Dad or others, this action of being OK with your life as it is, opens things up!”

We chatted more about resisting pain and turned to how I resist pain in our, Pat’s and my, relationship specifically.

I found myself reflecting on the past several days and realizing that nearly all of my experiences in these recent days and weeks have been quite enlivening for me.

…Yes, a cloud of darkness and anxiety was coming in on my evening. I wasn’t sure what was in my anxiety and the darkness rolling in, but there it was, and I was very aware of it.

While she spoke this with tenderness and love, I noticed that I could not really take in her words, I could not bring myself to believe her words.

To my amazement and delight (OK, and at first to my panic) Marjorie Bair had read not only my write up on the April 14-17 Trust Workshop that she had led, but she also read both of my two previous blog entries on Pat’s and my experience at Sage’s workshop on Divine Sexuality last weekend,

Wednesday morning, following the couples workshop, I commented to Pat about my sense of stuckness in our relating. Was I resigning myself to not being fulfilled in the sexual/physical dimensions of our otherwise beautiful relationship?