Gary's Blog

What does our sexuality look like in each of us? For me it is frightening to face the unknown nature of the Mystery of Sexuality.

My words sounded stupid to me as I listened to the recording. My words had covered feelings of confusion, feelings of loneliness in my isolation from Pat, Sage, and Anthony during the call, and feelings of pain in not knowing how to be in this wordless place with myself and others.

I simply took in her words, the words of my friend, and my own experience of myself, and sat with these words and this experience of self in what I would describe as peaceful confusion.

…unfettered learning comes when we are more aligned with our inner essence rather than aligned with external authority or religious or cultural norms.

…All of this negativity blocks any leadership I might have regarding the Vision Statement itself. … The truth, my truth, that I place a higher value on vision and leadership for the MAP School than I do on love scares me.

I am trying to settle into that energy of USness that you are experiencing. Can I let our USness be enough for me? Such a scary question for me.

This 2012 Christmas Day began with meditation followed by an extended and particularly intimate two-and-a-half-hour coffee time that we both accepted as the richest presents we could have given to each other.

Immediately I feel the terror in me arise when you lay this question on the table! You are inviting me to be here with you right now and fully.

… what is your vision for SDRC?” I was shocked at his question. I realized I had never thought about that question and had no sense of where I wanted SDRC to go.

I could recognize how so often I can still be identified with my separate self, my Lower Self, who gives an emphatic “No!” to words that suggest I am one with the Cosmos, one with God.