Gary's Blog

I felt a wave of resistance come up in me about sharing my own “oh-so-wonderful” Friday experience. This made me very curious.

Growing up in the Vollbracht/Ritzmann extended family had been an idyllic life in my own mind.

I feel sad in the unfulfilled longing for connection, and hopeless in believing that the connection I long for will never manifest.

Living “at my edge” would be living in those areas of my life that challenge me, where I face fear and anxiety and meet my fear with courage as I go through my fear.

as I sit with the fear I notice that sadness comes up. It is hard to be with this sadness. It seems there are layers upon layers of emotions here – all bottled up.

Yesterday one of my many meetings left me feeling exasperated.

My Presenting “Beautiful Problem;” How do I feel more deeply and more consistently the Joy over what is really going on in my Higher Self?

It is Thursday morning, October 4. Pat and I had a powerful session with Sage and Anthony yesterday.

Even in posing the question to myself I felt my inner censor come up immediately with his view of how I ought to feel rather than allowing myself to honestly explore how I do feel.

So my question in meditation was, “What keeps me from valuing myself, daring to honor who I am as a part of God’s creation on the planet?”