A Pathworker’s Blog

…a fear arose in me, an old deep fear. It came from my daring to speak my truth…

Blogging the way I do makes me uncomfortable at times. And at other times the posts feel like they come from deep within my core.

I was tapping into Source during meditation and other quiet times, but then later executing and living from ego, from memory.

Alone, in my sandbox, doing my own thing rather than facing the pain of unfulfillment

Oh yes, I want transformation, right? Of course I do, I am spiritual, my ego says. But yesterday’s pain in my relationship with Pat caused great anxiety

I could see a Puer Eternis (Eternal Boy) in me who had not taken responsibility for manifesting his life.

I came to see how profoundly these bonding patterns and techniques impacted my relationship with others, and especially my relationship with those closest to me.

Will I be debunked or laughed at regarding my passion for the Pathwork teachings in the presence of such an accomplished thinker?

For some reason I am more aware of the pain around me. Pain in my children’s lives, dear friends battling cancer, and tensions galore in the Pathwork community I serve.

I realize that depending on approval from the outside will never satisfy. …Intellectually I realize that only I can say I am OK, and MEAN IT.