A Pathworker’s Blog

Yesterday was a challenging day, sitting with levels of unfulfillment, being curious as to what defenses I have erected against fulfillment.

As I look at 2009 I am aware of areas of unfulfillment. … Why do I dismiss all of this rather than feel some sense of fulfillment?

And yet with this longing, there was within me also a persistent unexplained resistance to the material, yes, to Jesus Christ.

“Your barometer of your energy is the whether or not you are facilitating the Pathwork wisdom into the Earth Plane.”

In my own private world I am aware of needs and set about to satisfy them. …. But in considering my needs in relationship I freeze up.

But who am I apart from the identity I have found in these frameworks that I have embraced so fully in my life?

Any teaching presence I offer to another must allow for the unique way the teaching will resonate, nurture, and enliven the student.

Though spiritual teachings say one cannot mature and grow without help, help from others, help from the spiritual realm, help from Jesus Christ, I see my defiance against asking for and taking in help.

When I looked at the questions on the questionnaire, my heart sank. I felt despair. I realized I would never really be a Pathwork helper.

I could feel the armor of my mental arsenal, defending me against life experiences. I am taking strong cognitive skills and turning them into defenses.