A Pathworker’s Blog

My presenting “beautiful problem” that I brought to my session: “How can I more solidly commit to my Call and my True Self?”

In meditation the thought arose in me that I validate myself by taking on responsibilities not my own

Who is here? Who is “Gary” this morning? I engaged my feelings to see who was here.

Eighty or more people from Karen’s family and from several generations of Pathworkers from Sevenoaks showed up at 3:00 yesterday for Karen’s Memorial Ritual.

It is Sunday, September 16th, the day of Karen’s Memorial Service. I was anxious during the night. About what I would say and a number of other things.

It is a sunny Sunday. I am sitting on the deck and choosing to spend time reflecting and expanding upon my most recent Helper Session with Moira Shaw.

And I have no idea how to answer in a meaningful way the question they pose: “So Gary and Pat, what’s up in your lives?”

Am I a teacher? Am I a Pathwork Helper in the traditional way I understand that role? Well yes and no.

You are sensing an addiction to Fire in me? So, if I understand you, what you are seeing is that what I am thinking is my aliveness, my connection to God, my Life Force, my excitement and enthusiasm, you are seeing as a possible addiction? I can feel pain in this.

Sometimes I look around and ask, “Can we survive without our charismatic leaders?” “Isn’t it the charismatic leader who attracts followers?” “Are we doomed?”