A Pathworker’s Blog

A Helper Session: My Presenting Problem: Getting in touch with my self-hate – especially self-hate of the physicality of my sexuality, my sexual instincts.

Reflections on NYT 4/20/13 Worlds Away From Here by Ross Douthat

How is one to sort through all of these personal and spiritual development resources when he or she feels an inner call to, in some way, “move beyond” where one is? And what does “move beyond” where one is look like and really mean?

… while my life appeared to be similar to his for the first fifty years, I was not at all settled and stable when I entered my tumultuous sixth decade. I recognized that for many reasons I had not “followed my bliss” coming out of childhood.

Perhaps in its simplest form a true spiritual path can be expressed as Cross-Work – taught and modeled for us by Jesus and many others and a foundational distinction of Pathwork.

It is often challenging to describe Pathwork as a distinct spiritual path. How does it differ from other spiritual paths? … Just why are we here? What is our “job” on this earth? What motivates us to take on this job? What is our destiny?

To realize that I do not Know in my body the security of a healthy bonding attachment with another is both sad and scary.

Perhaps synchronicity is how we experience all of life as we awaken to life. Perhaps in the end all there is is synchronicity. Or rather there is never synchronicity but rather all of life is the natural spontaneous blossoming from Source, of which we are a part in our Essence.

My friend’s response? “Gary, I hope you see your Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD) in this!”

Why would I have panicked in realizing that my feelings are a central aspect of myself that I am invited to know and with which I am to become familiar as part of “Knowing Myself”?