Archive for April 2012

As I began my meditation this morning it suddenly dawned on me that I had so quickly forgotten that the “sun is behind the clouds” of my daily disharmonies of these past few days.

Somehow this severe criticism of something I have so much energy for feels familiar, but I’m not sure from whence it comes.

During meditation I went inwardly to the familiar questions of “Who am I?” “What am I about?” “Why am I here?” “Is there a purpose to all of this?” Interesting to watch my mind work! So what is going on? Let’s see what arises…

The meeting turned out to be amazing to me. Not so much in the results but in the process.

… my frustrations needed to be faced and held but need not stop me in my work with the various committees in which I am involved.

Although the day felt solid, even inspiring at times, why was I pulled off center, pulled away from what holds meaning for me?

So what does nurture my psyche? What does the word nurture mean on a Soul level?

I smiled. I had thought this paragraph would begin differently. I thought it would say that as I advance on my spiritual path and make progress that more and more Joy, Peace, Fulfillment, and Serenity would come to me. Not so!

This is not depression, as I felt yesterday morning. Actually I feel grounded, but just very alone. It seems that the deeper I go into my well, the lonelier I get. Perhaps at some point I’ll drop into the underground stream of Oneness, Oneness with God and Oneness with the All.

This understanding, this Truth, was felt like a drop of water on my parched tongue. My spirits were lifted. My stagnation was prevented. I can give up my despair and hopelessness.