August 31st, 2010
...when last night in a conversation with another leader he had an idea that would complicate my life and take time in my already-too-full schedule, I felt an "Oh shit" arise in me. ... read more »
Not Much Troubles Me. Should That Trouble Me? - A sudden sense of having wasted my entire life surfaces. Do I leave the planet any better than I found it? Was that even important? Does any single life really matter in the end? An existential purposelessness sets in. read more »
Pathwork and Healing My Attachment Avoidance Disorder - I am reminded of the Pathwork teachings on bypassing. – trying to experience “pleasure supreme” by going around rather than through my attachment avoidance defenses, negativities, and, above all, rather than truly healing my negative intentionality through a process of purification and transformation. read more »
Welcome To This World My Child... - ... I had no such connection that I could remember in my entire life. Could this be true? It seemed like bonding 101, yet I could not say that this had been a felt experience for me. read more »
I Don't Like People. Is That OK? Is That Really True? - “So, Gary, is that OK with you that you do not like people?” My immediate answer of course was, “Absolutely not! It is not OK to not like people.” “Not liking people” violated core “shoulds” in my Idealized Self Image. read more »
Wrestling Against and Longing For Union - Through my first five decades of life I was very immature in the matters of love and Union, and in the end this immaturity and what it led to – in both my marriage and my divorce – was so devastating to my wife and to my own soul. read more »
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